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[Jul. 20th, 2009|11:44 pm] |
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My bowling ball finally saw light again..ever since pj bowling???
Haha not too bad 189..for a old rusty player like me =)
I got my 4 beggars and turkey in the same game !!!
Own Time Own Target was good, wouldnt mind watching it again... |
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[Jul. 19th, 2009|01:13 am] |
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Gatherings with old time friends are great!!!
Guilty...missed youth service today =X |
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[Jul. 6th, 2009|11:25 pm] |
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" A person must never be L.A.Z.Y, you can sweep the roads or wash bowls but you are still working hard for your future...." This is what my mum just told me...
Friendship - Part I
1. "Your friends are the mirrors of your life. If you want to see what you are like, turn around and look at your friends. "
JUST TO NAME A FEW.....
Emotional Side of me - Shawn Rusell
Thoughtful Side of me - Dixon heng
Annoying Side of me - Raymond Seah
Dumb Side of me - Jorene Chong
High & Crazy Side of Me - Deb
Spendthrift Side of Me - Darren Goh
Fanatic Side of Me - Clarence Zhuang
Holy Side of Me - Benjamin
Friends tell the stories that you hide. I believe it is important to have a good business partner but even more important to have a good friendship because friends are the partners to your life. Sometimes people just make friends to buff up their Number of friends in their social network or just because of plain insecurity. People make friends because they are feeling insecure and scared of being lonely. There is no main purpose to the friendship. I believe that we should change this mindset. The only way to make a good friend (SOULMATE) is to pick your friend. Find a purpose for the friendship, let the friendship have more meaning than just hanging out.
Close friends that I have would really be my secondary school friends...clarence, ncz,ken,seb,jon...etc I believe that our friendships came a long way and I believe that i have a different purpose with every friend. Some might be there to just play the acting role of a listener, some there to push you above your limts or some just there to reassure you and just supporting you in life..
I just pray that we will all find our true friends, not only friends but soul mates. Let god show us our Johnathan, let us have friendships with purpose, depth and success. Let our friends know the stories that we hide. Let us be proud of our friends that they are the mirror of ourselves.
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[Jun. 29th, 2009|11:38 pm] |
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This was supposed to be my quiet time with God, just reading his word and spending time with him. Why am I here?
I just felt this stirring within me, God wants me to write out my life's testimony. So Here I am, recollecting my past present and future.
Some of my friends perhaps must be wondering why have I been so religious all of a sudden...I just want you guys to be happy for me that
I am now a man who is after God's heart.
Past
My life has been great and I guess its close to perfection. Well I first came to know about Jesus when I was in Sec 4. I was not a really dedicated christian back than...I was new to it and I guess I was not ready to plunge full head into it. My faith was weak and I guess I was just uncertain.
God has been great to me, walking with me every part of my journey regardless of whether I feel his presence or not. He is ever present. My christian life was a landslide...it just keeps going further down and away from God. It came to a point whereby I was just totally away and separated. Life went on and in JC I was what I call a "dead christian". My lips honored him but my heart was far away from him. No doubt that one of the best times in my life was in JC...but there are often days whereby I feel that something is missing in my life. I guess it was God's calling that I went to Australia to study. Today, I am thankful that I went over because its where I found my way back to God. Thinking back, I guess it was all planned out by God and really to me, it feels like he did it to get me back to him.
Life in Australia, I guess it was easy yet lonely. I use to type multiple entries about life in Australia but I am going to come clean with this entry. I guess it was around the 4 month or so in Australia. I really felt home sick. I just wanted to be back home and just abandond all my studies and everything in Australia. I wanted to go back to PJC and re-do my year 1...I didnt want to live in Australia anymore...Life at that point in time was really very tough for me. Even though I have friends around me it just wasnt the same. Skeletons out of the closet...I actually went into what I call "isolation"...I didnt answer any calls from my parents for about 3 days and I just switched off all communications. I needed time to be alone and to think where am I heading in life. It was really a point of desperation in my life and i have never felt so lost before. I was prepared to be on the next plane home...During that three days, I have no idea how it happen but it just did. I remembered praying to God,surprisingly I teared ...asking for help every night before I sleep...It was really the darkest moment of my life...Well I am glad God came through to me and since than I have never looked back.
PlanetShakers...Few people I wanna thank...Deb,Jon,David,winnie....etc. Glad to say I found my way back to God. The process wasn't an easy one but I was glad I pulled through. I found my directions in life, I know what I wanted! Of course, there were those grey days after that but each time, I would just pray to God and believe and really It just breeze through...Thinking back, I guess God had it all worked out for me long ago. Australia is just a stepping stone to guide me back to him. I will not be where I am today without him, especially that one year in Australia. I am really thankful that he did not forsake me when I turned my back on him. Its really hard to describe how I feel for him and how thankful I am. Miricals after miricals, he have shown in my life such that its impossible for me not to believe in him.
(To Be Continued.....)
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[Jun. 14th, 2009|11:02 pm] |
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Back from KL. I spend around 300 plus in a single day HA HA!
Anyway I bought my leather bible!! Something that I have been looking
forward for a really really long time but I just could not find the right one.
Also I got a PlanetSHakers ALbum! Its the second one that I have =)
Its the old one the 2003 but the songs are nice...
Also I actually bought Gossip Girl DVD...I heard a lot about the show
and perhaps its time for me to see it myself. ( I know I am dam slow...its such a old show..)
Oh I also had graveyard..and its quite cool the way they use the straws to make a cross...
*Kenneth and his friend already received news from melbourne uni...I have not receive any reply yet =X
Leaving it to God's wonderful hands =)
OFF TO BED! Back to camp tomorrow =( |
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[Jun. 8th, 2009|09:34 pm] |
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First day of work...I guess they are really testing my patience....
Thank God for my great anger management....
Though I am almost about to blow =X
I promised that I will change...Stop telling lies, being a arrogant bastard and just stop irritating people...
I want to live a more god-like life...but should I give in or explode when the time comes? |
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[May. 30th, 2009|01:33 am] |
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Donated blood today =)
Cycle for 7 hours =X |
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[May. 27th, 2009|11:26 pm] |
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Drank 2 bottles of Calsberg...
Seriously, I have enough of everything....one day I am just going to pull the 3 of them together by the neck and thrash it all out....SHIT!
It really hurts to see my grandmother like that.... |
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[May. 19th, 2009|12:18 am] |
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"Life has been a long, long operation and this surgery began when I became conscious of what was happening around me. I was injected with anaesthesia when it began and slowly, the doctor began cutting me apart. Inch by inch, the glowing sharp scalpel carved into me and crimson red blood began to flow out of the incision.
Yet, when I was young, I was still under the influence of anaesthesia and there was no pain. Why? Because I spent my days getting into naughty acts, playing and not once was I really conscious of what was really happening. I was asleep. Peacefully resting in deep slumber.
However, slowly the clock turned to when I was 16. It was then that I told myself I had to change for the better. Yet, what I did not know was that with such a resolution came a hefty price. Slowly, the anaesthesia wore out and the sleeping patient awoke.
I started to change. I began to put others before myself and compromising to make others happy. My world no longer revolved around myself but around the happiness of others. When others were happy, I would be thrilled. When others were sad, I would be dejected. Then I began to do silly things. I would constantly think of how to make others happy but little did I know that bit by bit, I was losing myself. I used to be an arrogant performer, gracing the stage and flaunting what I had or had not. Yet, slowly I was reduced to an audience, to watch the shows of others and accord them the applause of encouragement.
I began to serve others and sometimes I even remarked at how selfless I had became. But deep inside, I knew I was dead selfish. Everybody has a motive for doing something, something they want to gain. To some, it may be money or fame but for me, I always went the extra mile for gratitude. I longed for the simplest "Thank you" for it was akin to a rainbow brightening up the sky. There are people whom I hold close to the heart yet deep down I know I do not have the same position in theirs. I thought I didn't mind for it was their happiness that mattered, but deep down inside it hurt so badly.
The operation is on-going and the anaesthesia has worn out. Every moment brings to me waves of pain and tears that threaten to obliterate me. I might have gotten used to the pain over the years but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt any more. Now, I can only hope some kind soul can stitch me up and bring me relief to the screaming pain." - Posted by Dixon Heng aka my BMT mate
What can I say, this is the world that I am living in right now..though I am determined to change and find back myself |
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[May. 11th, 2009|09:07 pm] |
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I just finished watching X-men on Star Movies. The show should be around 9 years old since it came out in 2000. It was still as captivating as it used to be and I really enjoyed watching it. I guess its one of those movies whereby it connects with my childhood. I would go crazy over the action figures when I was young. It always was X-man and power rangers!
There are a lot of updates about my life. So many thing I wish to blog about like my Sydney trip and stuff but I guess I really dont have the time and It would be take me forever to blog them down. I guess the best way would still be the conventional way of just meeting up over a cup of drink at mac and talk cock till dawn. I need to pack my room soon, its SUPER messy!! Got to make my room a more conducive environment to study, the presence of this very laptop is definitely not an option. I need to start bucking up for my japanese soon.
life is never as easy as it seems to be. So many new problems arise every day and you have to solve them. Its really very fustrating especially when people try to "TAI JI" all the problems over. SHIT! I mean seriously, settle problems your own and don't make it a burden for someone else. If you do not have the ability to do it than DONT BE A HERO AND PROMISE SOMEONE!
I am super sick of doing stuff for people, organising things and stringing everything together be it at work, school, social life etc...ENOUGH! Sometimes I really just want to STOP giving a damn about the people around me and just lead my own life. I guess that is one reason why I always want to go Australia, to run away from everyone over here, just lead a life on my own. I am seriously getting very short-tempered recently and my limit is almost there already.
Anyway on the lighter note, im going for Stephanie Sun Concert =) Looking forward to it cause I missed the previous one due to chicken pox...And I already had the TICKET!! Thank god and hopefully I would be able to make it for this one.
After passing driving and getting my license, I always am so tempted to drive and stuff. I always pester my dad to buy me a 2nd hand car. Actually from the start I know its quite impossible to get the car and also seriously its quite pointless. BUT than they PROMISED me once I passed and get my license they would get one for me. Seriously...I mean if you never intend to get one car for me in singapore than stop giving hope from the start...Its dam weird like even though you obviously know you wont get it from the start, but than you always hold on to that little hope, wishing that a mirical can happen.
I believe that if ever there is one day when I become rebellious, it would be the doing of my parents. Its because of incidents like this that I want to go learn bike and purposely irritate them...and seriously I think bike is quite cool also HAHA...Seriously considering it..
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[Mar. 22nd, 2008|03:37 am] |
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Well this is the song composed by Clarence and Chang Zhi today. I really think its something wonderful to come together with your good friends and just sitting down and composing songs. This isnt a instrumental piece its just that the song isnt complete yet due to the lack of time and ideas I guess. Oh yea I have yet to get someone to sing the song and I will post the lyrics up for the first part below. Really looking forward to hear the final product of this song =)
想着你
那温柔的眼睛
还记得
当初向追求你
我以为
我们会有美好的结局
但是你
最终要离去 |
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[Jan. 5th, 2008|10:44 pm] |
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This is my 2nd song so yup enjoy it |
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[Dec. 20th, 2007|09:31 am] |
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First book out from camp. Life in PTP is really bad because I am super unfit and cannot do alot of physical training so yes life is really difficult but ya I guess you will eventually get used to it. Made lots of friends and like my section. Thank God that I managed to click so well with people in my section. Saw alot of people and yes did alot of stupid things as well. Actually its quite enjoyable at times but really tiring. Anyway just to keep it short, I just wanna thank God for afew things in this post....
1) My results...1 Distinction and 4 High Distinction with music as my highest subject =)
2) Watching over me in army
3 Healing my loved ones |
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[Dec. 13th, 2007|12:06 am] |
Going into Tekong tomorrow...Time check in 1pm so I guess this would be like my last and final post on my livejournal till like 2 weeks later?
Many moments I doubt myself and question myself whether I will survie NS. We were like talking about the spooky stuff in NS the Do's and Dont's..but really sitting down here infront of my livejournal, there is only one word that keep floating around my mind and that is GOD!
Well I guess its only normal that people get nervous and stuff. Its a whole new environment, a whole new challenge and a whole new beginning. There will be difficulties and challenges that we will face but to all those who are going in NS I just wanna say no matter what problems you face, Just turn them all and surrender all of them to God.
Just a short recap of the last week on this heartland....went out for Relations Committee Dinner and had a really good catch up with all my recolers and yes alot of dirty dark secrets were being spilled out that very night. Oh yes on the 2nd day of the Chinese New Year we are going to miss lee's house to bai nian..Haha and OK if you guys are wondering when is the ReCo dinner it is on the 18th of January so yes I didnt throw away the book oh and thanks to KeYan for the card and deb for the book
Than there was the farewell dinner at New York New York and than we had a really good time. Bought some m&m t-shirt which I think I still look better in Red.Than we went walking and roaming around clark quey than ended up at forbidden city and had my Butterfly Effect drink. One word it SUCK!
Today went out the whole day. Than went to Yio Chu Kang MRT and we got conned by a old man! So dam lame and we are dam dumb to actually stand down there and do nothing..."The lift takes awhile to close its door" Haha than there was this black humour part at the 825 bus stop..but must accumulate good karma so wont blog about it haha
Ok I need to go off soon...Results are out in like 2 days...OK take care folks and God Bless |
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[Dec. 9th, 2007|12:46 am] |
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I went to visit my Grandmother at some Ang Mo Kio Hospital. I was deeply upset and feeling really sorry when I see the sight of my grandmother.She is really old and weak now. It really pains to see someone whom you love so much and dearly lying on the hospital bed. I am feeling really ashame of myself right now, I promised her that I would visit her more often ever since she was at TTS hospital. As expected, I didnt keep my promise to her. I think I really let my grandmother down. As I wave goodbye to her just now, I can feel her sadness, lonliness and it really pains me. I prayed to God and I BELIEVE that God will make everything right and pour his blessings and healings onto her. God has really been great to me, he really love me so much. Till this very day, I have yet to experience the feeling of loosing a love one and I really thank God for that.
4 more days to TEKONG! |
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[Dec. 5th, 2007|03:38 am] |
Finally the LiveJournal allow me to post...ok more will be coming up when I finish gathering pics
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[Dec. 5th, 2007|03:24 am] |
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OK so today is Grad night...PJC 2007 graduation night is overall rated 3/5 stars....and its mainly because of the more edible food and the nice atmosphere that I am in..However I must comment that the entertainment is REALLY BAD and ya the PROM KING is just @!#%!#
Went to The ARENA after prom at Clark Quey and had 2 glasses of vodka...Jorene Chong is obviously quite stupid HA HA! Oh yes and than whenever I am on the dance floor the songs that are playing are so CRAPPY...The minute I return to my seat than all the nice songs starts to show up...SUPER FUSTRATING LA!
Saw YanHan at the club..He didnt change much if you ask me...oh so much memories of the times when we were all studying for our 0 levels at Mrs chua house and than all the card games and lame stuffs that we do...
Took lots of pics but than most of them are not in my camera so PEOPLE PLEASE SEND THEM TO ME ASAP! (ITs best before I enter army)
Not sure tomorrow if I should go MOS...quite tired already and my ears are deaf now...
OK I am really tired now and a little high...shall just post some random pics at prom and go to sleep...I can just hear my bed calling me...
ARGGED IRRITATING LJ DONT LET ME UPLOAD PICS! |
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[Dec. 4th, 2007|01:39 am] |
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I do not want to say much...will spam this page with prom pics soon hope it will be a good one
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[Nov. 30th, 2007|10:58 pm] |
Tired...
Tomorrow Class Chlaet
2nd got to go get my hair done
3rd going to kbox with friends
4th Grad night
AND I STILL HAVE YET TO decide what am I going to wear...they dont let me wear gothic T_T |
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