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[Apr. 17th, 2012|01:49 am] |
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"My son give attention to my words; Incline your ear to my sayings. Do not let them depart from your eyes; keep them in midst of your heart; For they are life to those who find them, and health to all their flesh." - Proverbs 4:20-22
It has been a long time since I last blogged about my devotions. Tonight's passage was exceptionally applicable to my current situation. Truth to be told, I must say I haven't been on cloud 9 in my Christian Faith and walk with God. This season would perhaps be my darkest days and I am not sure whether I have walked out of this valley of death.
In life it is all about choices. The individual autonomy to choose what path he wants to take. Today I wanna make a new commitment between me and God. I will continue to give attention to his words and incline my ear to his sayings. I used to...I will yet |
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[Apr. 15th, 2012|04:45 pm] |
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For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes |
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[Mar. 19th, 2012|10:12 pm] |
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Why do men always fail? Lord do we not try? When will you be back to make us whole? |
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[Mar. 8th, 2012|03:14 pm] |
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I believe that the Lord closes a window of opportunity not because he doesn't love you but because he does. Sometimes we think that, we know what is best for our lives. Lord I need this job placement, Lord I need this new car, Lord I need...Lord I need...
It has been a really humbling experience for me to know that all you really need is the grace of God and that you already have. I often raise expectations on things which results in total disappointments most of the times. I thank God that he searches my heart, showing me that really all I need is him and nothing more. Things will not always go the way you want, but he will never disappoint.
God, you are not in the fairy godmother business. I know that you have my best interest and I am sorry for my demands and anger when you dont fulfil them. I know you love me more than I can imagine and know what is the best for me. Lord I am sorry for being so naive in my thoughts. I praise you for you are a Good God, and a God who sees the end.
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[Mar. 7th, 2012|10:31 pm] |
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Many people assume that as a law student, writing and expression would probably be the least of one worries. I however, always find it difficult to pen down my thoughts. For starters, its perhaps because my mind is filled with loads of useless information, ideas so random that even I am amazed with what I actually come out with.
Third year into University and I can't help but to look back at the past two years of my life. Have I became a different person? Adapting my way through university, changing my behaviour, values and vision for survival? Have I now become relatively more socially desirable as a person in society?
I guess one's environment can shape a person's character. Much have changed in this past two years. I experienced the loss of a love one, I went through my peak in terms of academic but also went through the darkest valley in my 22 years on Earth, where hope feels so far away. I no longer remember who I am two years ago and sometimes I no longer can recognise who I am today. I look into the mirror, and often wonder, would things have been different if I weren't where I am today?
I thank God that even in my darkest days, I am comforted by the fact that he is right there beside me. Even in the troughs, he is sovereign. Circumstances doesn't change who God is. Can one really live without God? I guess many try to and perhaps many would think that they have succeeded in it, but I know I can't and no one can.
Thank you Lord for being the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. Even though I may be a different man from who I used to be, but I know that my identity or who I end up being doesn't matter in your eyes. I will never be able to live the way you want me to live, I will never be able to survive the death that I deserve. I thank you Lord for sending your one and only beloved son Jesus, to die for me on the cross, to give me a brand new identity, to make me whole and build a relationship with you. |
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[Feb. 1st, 2012|01:22 am] |
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Change. |
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[Oct. 25th, 2011|06:00 pm] |
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Isaiah 41:10
Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthened you,
Yes I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.
Back in the exam period, and once again I find myself struggling to finish learning my stuff. Sometimes I think it might be my own expectation that causes me to feel so dismay and stressed.
My faith is in God, and my trust is in him. He will sustain me through till the end. |
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[Oct. 23rd, 2011|11:35 am] |
Philippians 4:13
New International Version (NIV)
13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength.
Perhaps many of us have came across this verse either from our christian friends, or perhaps when you walk pass a Christian bookshop. Indeed looking just at this verse alone in vacuum, it leaves the reader feeling motivated and encouraged, as though he can achieve EVERYTHING or ANYTHING relying on Christ.
Indeed I wouldnt say that this is strictly wrong, but perhaps there is much more to it. Looking at the two verses prior to that, just to see get a view of the context.
11 I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content 13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength.
Reading these verses together, I guess to me it really isnt what you can "achieve" per se but really the main idea here is CONTENTMENT! Paul wrote that he went through rich and poor, hardship and luxury. I think verse 13 doesnt mean that you should or can or must change the surroundings that you are an achieve something better.
verse 13 is really talking about you finding your strength and contentment in Christ, regardless of whatever situations you are in. Satisfaction and Content is in Christ. It isn't about changing your circumstances but to learn to be content and live in it.
What situation are you in now? Which season are you living in? I guess no matter the season or time, you can ALWAYS and should ALWAYS find contentment and satisfaction in Christ. |
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[Aug. 21st, 2011|05:31 pm] |
Even today I am still questioning whether I should continue studying law. Though I am thankful that God had provided and seen me through thus far. I can never imagine a day without him holding my hand, guiding me and showing me the way.
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[Apr. 13th, 2011|12:08 am] |
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My daily Rant...
Spent 9 hours doing differentiation...seriously going to vomit blood and im only at week 3. I really do regret not learning my a math properly back then, too late for regrets I guess.
I have no idea why but i sort of feel really relax these few days. I think I have really given up on a lot of things. I have given up going back Singapore and also even trying to do well. The stress is too much for me and I really think I am getting psychotic and depress at times.
Sometimes I look at my circumstances and surrounding, and I just want to give up everything and just go back home. It is really tiring to be an overseas student, not only because of the workload but also the environment. Have I really adapted into Sydney after 1 year? I guess not. I have lost my momentum to carry on but nevertheless, I cant stop.
Tired I am, but Walking On I will.
Haven't felt so happy and relax in such a long time...
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